WAITING ON GOD

I have waited my whole life for Love. Like most people, I tried to design it myself (more times than I would like to admit).

Besides a few serious relationships, I’ve been engaged five times (yes I said five) and married once. Obviously not only was I looking to be loved…I was looking for someone to fill this hole inside of me. A hole that I came to know as my God shaped hole.

After accepting Jesus in my heart, I decided I wanted to spend my time getting to know Him so I put dating on hold....the more I got to know Him, the more I came to realize that the man in my life would need to be a Godly man. The more I fell in love with Him, the more I realized that the sexiest thing in a man was his love for Jesus.

I prayed and trusted God with my future. And as a “ducks in row” chick, I was sure my God would send me this nice neat package. You know, a Godly man with no kids, little past baggage, and a future in perfect order….SURPRISE! The man He sent me is a Godly man, but the nice neat package thing…not so much. But my Great Big God had a plan from the very beginning.

I discovered that when you follow His lead, He will lead you in ways you have never imagined. Follow Him and He will give you all the desires of your heart. The ones you knew you had, as well as the ones you didn’t dare dream of. Wait on God, and he will blow your mind.

A relationship designed by Him is not about the two people who are in it, it’s about how they will glorify Him together. Loving Jesus first is what matters and everything else follows. I can’t imagine myself ever being able to design a man who adores me, who pursues me and who loves me the way that my Father has. His gift to me shows me how much He loves me.

Worldly relationships are about “How can you make me happy.”

Godly relationships are about “How can we make Him happy together.”

The focus is different, therefore the struggles are different. Making Him happy comes before making your significant other happy. Now the pressure is off of you, because making each other happy becomes His responsibility, not yours.

Being responsible for someone else’s happiness is an expectation God never intended us to have. I trusted Him and He gave me my Greatest Gift. I Love you Smith.