No matter what you believe, one thing is clear, we all came from some powerful force. But to believe that we came from a "Big Bang" would mean that life is all there is. Nothing to follow.
Where is the hope in that?
I believe that God created us in His perfect image and we decided to go our own way. As a loving Father, He came to rescue us. By putting on flesh, He stepped into our world to experience the trials and tribulations of being man. He suffered and died the ultimate sacrifice and rose to life again to give us hope. The Hope of glory. And by giving our lives back to Him, we will rise with Him to a new life, here, and on to eternity.
For me, that is the hope you can only get from God, not a Big Bang.
Job 38:32-33
“Can you direct the movement of the stars—
binding the cluster of the Pleiades
or loosening the cords of Orion?
Can you direct the constellations through the seasons
or guide the Bear with her cubs across the heavens?
Do you know the laws of the universe?
Can you use them to regulate the earth?
Colossians 1:27
To them God willed to make known what are the riches of the glory of this mystery... which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
2 Corinthians 4:18
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
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June 30, 2008
MY LIFE BEFORE GOD
Before God, I was a seemingly selfish person. I was incapable of seeing the many blessings in my life. The great thing about God is that He waits patiently for us to see Him and then He opens our eyes to all that He has given us.
One of the blessings I saw was my nephews. I have two nephews who I love very much. But I was always too selfish to see how much they loved me back. How much they wanted me to be more a part of their lives. Before God I spent very little time with them. I was so busy filling my days with nonsense that I could not seem to fit them in, never realizing that in the meantime they were growing up.
The next blessing I saw was life itself. You see, I am a cancer survivor. Before God, I was so afraid of dying. Dying was the end in my mind, filled with darkness, loneliness, and hopelessness. Actually what I just described was my life.
When they found the cancer I cried, but the “cancer” part never really sunk in. I went through the motions of the physical part, the surgeries, the pain, the healing. But I never identified that I actually had cancer until several months later when they told me that I needed to have scans on my lungs. Lungs I said, why lungs? The nurse said because the kind of cancer I had could metastasize in my lungs. That is when I realized I had had “cancer”. I was so afraid. I went into a depression. Then shortly after, my cat (my child of 18 years) developed cancer in her eye. She had surgery, bounced back like a kitten again, buy then died 3 months later when the cancer metastasized throughout her body. She truly was my child and I had no idea how to live without her. Not to mention, I saw my own mortality through her cancer and her death. I went even deeper into a depression. In my mind, even though I had an amazing family, I was more alone than I ever had been before.
I spent my whole life living for tomorrow and never, ever saw today. I was so lost in tomorrow, that during the 18 years of my cat’s life I was so stressed about losing her that I forgot to enjoy every minute that God gave me with her.
I never enjoyed today. Not in my relationships, not on vacations, not my health. I was so busy chasing tomorrow. Then suddenly tomorrow had “cancer” in it, possibly death. And I had lost my lifeline of 18 years to the same disease. I had no relationship with God. I wasn’t even sure he existed. As a matter of fact I was sure if he did exist, he surely didn’t like me at all.
So what did I do? I cried, A LOT. I felt sorry for myself. I lost tons of weight and did not leave my house for three months other than to go to work. Then I found a friend and a boyfriend who where just as lost as I was and I continued to develop toxic relationships.
Until one day my sister threw me into church and God spoke through the pastor so passionately and grabbed a hold of me and has never let go. God is truly the answer to peace. He made us in His image and we thirst for Him every minute of every day that we are on this planet. Jesus said "whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in ham a spring of water welling up to eternal life." John 4:14.
Most times we are so stubborn we don’t see Him until we are on our knees and even then sometimes we miss Him. Thank goodness God never gives up on us.
He loves us so much that no matter how much we hurt Him and turn our backs on Him, He is always there waiting for us until we are ready to recognize that He is all we need. We go through life searching for peace. We look high and low. We wake up every day hoping that maybe today’s the day I will find it. Mistakenly thinking that we can find it through another person, possibly through a shopping spree, or maybe hitting the lottery.
Not knowing God and being under the influence of the enemy, we don’t have a clue what it means to have peace in Jesus. The devil has us so convinced that Jesus isn’t real. That if God even exists He must not care about me or He wouldn’t let all these things happen. This is the way I thought for many years. Never knowing God's promises, never reading His Word.
Now I thank God every day that he used my sadness, my cancer, my loss, my sister to bring me to my knees. To bring me to Him, where I have found, without a shadow of a doubt, my peace through Jesus. I found my family, my church, my health, my life. Thank You God for loving me so much. Thank You for being so patient. Thank You for forgiving me. Thank You for choosing me so I could choose You.
Colossians 1:13-14 For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins.
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One of the blessings I saw was my nephews. I have two nephews who I love very much. But I was always too selfish to see how much they loved me back. How much they wanted me to be more a part of their lives. Before God I spent very little time with them. I was so busy filling my days with nonsense that I could not seem to fit them in, never realizing that in the meantime they were growing up.
The next blessing I saw was life itself. You see, I am a cancer survivor. Before God, I was so afraid of dying. Dying was the end in my mind, filled with darkness, loneliness, and hopelessness. Actually what I just described was my life.
When they found the cancer I cried, but the “cancer” part never really sunk in. I went through the motions of the physical part, the surgeries, the pain, the healing. But I never identified that I actually had cancer until several months later when they told me that I needed to have scans on my lungs. Lungs I said, why lungs? The nurse said because the kind of cancer I had could metastasize in my lungs. That is when I realized I had had “cancer”. I was so afraid. I went into a depression. Then shortly after, my cat (my child of 18 years) developed cancer in her eye. She had surgery, bounced back like a kitten again, buy then died 3 months later when the cancer metastasized throughout her body. She truly was my child and I had no idea how to live without her. Not to mention, I saw my own mortality through her cancer and her death. I went even deeper into a depression. In my mind, even though I had an amazing family, I was more alone than I ever had been before.
I spent my whole life living for tomorrow and never, ever saw today. I was so lost in tomorrow, that during the 18 years of my cat’s life I was so stressed about losing her that I forgot to enjoy every minute that God gave me with her.
I never enjoyed today. Not in my relationships, not on vacations, not my health. I was so busy chasing tomorrow. Then suddenly tomorrow had “cancer” in it, possibly death. And I had lost my lifeline of 18 years to the same disease. I had no relationship with God. I wasn’t even sure he existed. As a matter of fact I was sure if he did exist, he surely didn’t like me at all.
So what did I do? I cried, A LOT. I felt sorry for myself. I lost tons of weight and did not leave my house for three months other than to go to work. Then I found a friend and a boyfriend who where just as lost as I was and I continued to develop toxic relationships.
Until one day my sister threw me into church and God spoke through the pastor so passionately and grabbed a hold of me and has never let go. God is truly the answer to peace. He made us in His image and we thirst for Him every minute of every day that we are on this planet. Jesus said "whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in ham a spring of water welling up to eternal life." John 4:14.
Most times we are so stubborn we don’t see Him until we are on our knees and even then sometimes we miss Him. Thank goodness God never gives up on us.
He loves us so much that no matter how much we hurt Him and turn our backs on Him, He is always there waiting for us until we are ready to recognize that He is all we need. We go through life searching for peace. We look high and low. We wake up every day hoping that maybe today’s the day I will find it. Mistakenly thinking that we can find it through another person, possibly through a shopping spree, or maybe hitting the lottery.
Not knowing God and being under the influence of the enemy, we don’t have a clue what it means to have peace in Jesus. The devil has us so convinced that Jesus isn’t real. That if God even exists He must not care about me or He wouldn’t let all these things happen. This is the way I thought for many years. Never knowing God's promises, never reading His Word.
Now I thank God every day that he used my sadness, my cancer, my loss, my sister to bring me to my knees. To bring me to Him, where I have found, without a shadow of a doubt, my peace through Jesus. I found my family, my church, my health, my life. Thank You God for loving me so much. Thank You for being so patient. Thank You for forgiving me. Thank You for choosing me so I could choose You.
Colossians 1:13-14 For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins.
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FINDING GOD
When I think of how long it took me to find God it makes me want to kick myself. To know this feeling of completeness, of true joy, of trust, of just knowing that no matter what comes my way that All Mighty God has my back, is to know what the true meaning of the word PEACE is.
I mean we all go through our trials, our aches and our deep pains of life and loss. But it really is different when you know God. When you finally come to the realization that he put on flesh, suffered beyond words, climbed willingly on a cross and died for you just because he loves you changes everything. Everything you think, feel, do and say. You want everyone you see to have the same feeling. You start thirsting to know all you can soak in about Him. You want to know him on a personal level. I have discovered that this is what we need to base our feelings of “true love” upon. We try to seek our true love through the flesh.
I spent my entire life seeking tomorrow, taking care of tomorrow. So much so that I never worried or even paid attention to today. My security depended on my career, my insurance portfolio, my home, my financial portfolio, my significant other of the time. Never thinking about God, never believing or understanding that He was all I needed.
I chased the dream of the perfect relationship. If only I had the perfect man for me. He would save me from this dreary life. We would conquer the world. We would be the “love” that everyone wanted to have. I mean, isn’t this what we learn from fairy tales. That all we need to do is find our Prince and we will live happily ever after. Never did any fairy tale ever tell me to (Matthew 6:33-34) Seek the Kingdom of God above all else and he will give me everything I need. It doesn’t say He will give me the man I need, it says everything I need. Someone needs to write a fairy tale about that. Without God there are no princes or happily ever afters. Period.
We spend our lives worrying about tomorrow. Will I have enough money, will I ever find my prince, am I pretty enough, smart enough, and will I stay healthy. God says (Phil 4:6-8) Don’t worry about anything instead pray about everything, tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything you can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Fix your thoughts on what is true , and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think of things that are excellent and worthy of praise.
Most of us only wish we learned as children what it means to focus on God’s word, to put it into practice. Exposure to God’s word is not enough. It must lead to obedience. He provides us with a book that if we followed it, if we just listen to Him, we would live peaceful, full lives. He supplied us with everything we need, we just as humans continue to try to do it our way, thinking that God may need our help.
God says (Jeremiah 29:11-13) I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster to give you a future and a hope. In those days you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly you will find me.
And I say when you find Him is when, and only then, your life will truly begin.
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I mean we all go through our trials, our aches and our deep pains of life and loss. But it really is different when you know God. When you finally come to the realization that he put on flesh, suffered beyond words, climbed willingly on a cross and died for you just because he loves you changes everything. Everything you think, feel, do and say. You want everyone you see to have the same feeling. You start thirsting to know all you can soak in about Him. You want to know him on a personal level. I have discovered that this is what we need to base our feelings of “true love” upon. We try to seek our true love through the flesh.
I spent my entire life seeking tomorrow, taking care of tomorrow. So much so that I never worried or even paid attention to today. My security depended on my career, my insurance portfolio, my home, my financial portfolio, my significant other of the time. Never thinking about God, never believing or understanding that He was all I needed.
I chased the dream of the perfect relationship. If only I had the perfect man for me. He would save me from this dreary life. We would conquer the world. We would be the “love” that everyone wanted to have. I mean, isn’t this what we learn from fairy tales. That all we need to do is find our Prince and we will live happily ever after. Never did any fairy tale ever tell me to (Matthew 6:33-34) Seek the Kingdom of God above all else and he will give me everything I need. It doesn’t say He will give me the man I need, it says everything I need. Someone needs to write a fairy tale about that. Without God there are no princes or happily ever afters. Period.
We spend our lives worrying about tomorrow. Will I have enough money, will I ever find my prince, am I pretty enough, smart enough, and will I stay healthy. God says (Phil 4:6-8) Don’t worry about anything instead pray about everything, tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything you can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Fix your thoughts on what is true , and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think of things that are excellent and worthy of praise.
Most of us only wish we learned as children what it means to focus on God’s word, to put it into practice. Exposure to God’s word is not enough. It must lead to obedience. He provides us with a book that if we followed it, if we just listen to Him, we would live peaceful, full lives. He supplied us with everything we need, we just as humans continue to try to do it our way, thinking that God may need our help.
God says (Jeremiah 29:11-13) I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster to give you a future and a hope. In those days you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly you will find me.
And I say when you find Him is when, and only then, your life will truly begin.
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