I am someone who has always strived to live with as much stability and security as I could possibly find. I have always had to have all my ducks in a row. Everything in my life had to be tangible. If I couldn’t see it or touch it, it wasn’t real. This way of thinking made me a complete control freak. I had to do everything myself because I couldn’t see the end result unless I could see all the details that went into the journey.
In my relationships I took care of everything. The finances, the vacation plans, big purchases, etc. After a while of doing EVERYTHING, I would then get angry that they were not doing anything. Suddenly it became their fault that I was handling it all….Like I would have had it any other way. AS I SAID, A COMPLETE CONTROL FREAK.
This is one of the reasons it took me so long to find God. I couldn’t see Him or touch Him. He wasn’t tangible to me, so how could He be real?
By His awesome grace, I have come to realize that my most stability and security come from the One I can not see or touch, but wow I can feel Him everywhere from the inside out. He taught me to live by believing and not by seeing. (2 Corinthians 5:7)
Let Him in and watch everything change.
About Me
- Jena Rainone Smith
- Christ follower, wife and bonus mom to three amazing kids and loving every minute of it!
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Jena
Even Moses had a hard problem delegating, so don't feel too bad. lol ~W
Exodus 18:13-27
13 Next day Moses sat to judge the people, and the people stood around Moses from morning till evening.
14 When Moses' father-in-law saw all that he was doing for the people, he said, What is this that you do for the people? Why do you sit alone, and all the people stand around you from morning till evening?
15 Moses said to his father-in-law, Because the people come to me to inquire of God.
16 When they have a dispute they come to me, and I judge between a man and his neighbor, and I make them know the statutes of God and His laws.
17 Moses' father-in-law said to him, The thing that you are doing is not good.
18 You will surely wear out both yourself and this people with you, for the thing is too heavy for you; you are not able to perform it all by yourself.
19 Listen now to [me]; I will counsel you, and God will be with you. You shall represent the people before God, bringing their cases and causes to Him,
20 Teaching them the decrees and laws, showing them the way they must walk and the work they must do.
21 Moreover, you shall choose able men from all the people--God-fearing men of truth who hate unjust gain--and place them over thousands, hundreds, fifties, and tens, to be their rulers.
22 And let them judge the people at all times; every great matter they shall bring to you, but every small matter they shall judge. So it will be easier for you, and they will bear the burden with you.
23 If you will do this, and God so commands you, you will be able to endure [the strain], and all these people also will go to their [tents] in peace.
24 So Moses listened to and heeded the voice of his father-in-law and did all that he had said.
25 Moses chose able men out of all Israel and made them heads over the people, rulers of thousands, of hundreds, of fifties, and of tens.
26 And they judged the people at all times; the hard cases they brought to Moses, but every small matter they decided themselves.
so glad you found HIM, and allowed Him to touch you, transform you, USE you! -L
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